Arose(Explicit)
If I could rewind time like a tape inside a boombox
- If I could rewind time like a tape inside a boombox
- One day for every pill or percocet that I ate
- Cut down on the valium I'da heard everything
- But death is turning so definite wait
- They got me all hooked up to some machine
- I love you being didn't want you to know I was struggling
- Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine
- Just heard that nurse say my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
- Been flirtatious with death skirt-chasing I guess
- It's arrivederci same nurse just heard say they're unplugging me
- And it's your birthday Jade I'm missing your birthday
- Baby girl I'm sorry I f**king hate when you hurt Hai
- And sweeties thank you for waiting to open gifts
- But girls you can just open 'em dad ain't making it home for Christmas
- Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
- I go to make a fist but I can't make one I'm frozen stiff
- I yell but nothing comes out I'm crying inside I shout
- My vocal cords won't permit me I scream but it's not aloud
- You put your arm around Mama to calm her wow
- I just thought about the aisle I'll never get to walk us down
- Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
- It's 'bout to be 2008 how's this happening now
- I've got so much more to do and proof I'm truly sorry
- If I let you down but this tore me in two
- The thought of no more me and you
- You gave me shoes Nikes like new for me for school
- Doody I'm trying but you you were the glue that binded
- So many things time I'd give anything to rewind it
- I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
- By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause
- That image burned in my brain of you on that table
- Me falling across your body not able to stand to save you
- God why did you take him
- I'm tryna keep his legacy alive but I'm dying where's Nathan
- Little ladies be brave take care of your mother
- Smile pretty for pictures always cherish each other
- I'll always love ya and I'll be in the back of your memory
- And I know you'll never forget me just don't get sad when remembering
- And little bro keep making me proud
- You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
- And when you're exchanging those sacred vows just know that if I could be there
- I would and should you ever see parenthood I know you'll be good at it
- Oh almost forgot to do something thank my father too
- I actually learned a lot from you you taught me what not to do
- And mom wish I'da had the chance
- To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
- Doody I see you I go to walk to you
- And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
- Nurses lean over the bed pulling tubes out
- Then the sheet over my head shut the room down
- Girls please don't get upset I see them cheeks soaking and wet
- As you squeeze hold of my neck so forcibly don't wanna let
- Me go pillow drenched emotional wrecks
- With every second each closer to death
- But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow
- Then a breath machines go
- Must've guessed the cheat codes to this sh*t
- I'm tryna rewind time like a tape find an escape
- Make a beeline try and awake
- From this dream I need to re-find
- My inner strength to remind me
- Even if a steep climb I must take
- To rewrite a mistake I'm rewinding the tape
- I don't want it
- I'll put out this last album then I'm done with it
- One hundred percent finished fed up with it
- I'm hanging it up f**k it
- Excuse the cursing baby but just know
- That I'm a good person though they portray me as cold
- And if things should worsen but I bet you they won't
- I'm pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet
- Shred these old letters I wrote
- All that old pathetic loathing closing credits can roll
- I'm proud to be back I'm 'bout to like a rematch
- Outdo Relapse
- With Recovery Mathers LP2
- Help propel me to victory laps
- Gas toward 'em and fast forward the past
- Consider the last four minutes as
- The song I'da sang to my daughters
- If I'da made it to the hospital
- Less than two hours later but I fought it
- Came back like a boomerang on 'em
- Now a new day is dawning I'm up Tuesday it's morning
- Now I know
Comment 6
Keep singing! I will always support you!
Thanks
Professional singer
So gorgeous
keep doing what you're doing
I will always support you