Hope of Morning
My mind's a kaleidoscope it thinks too fast
- My mind's a kaleidoscope it thinks too fast
- Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
- The last mistake the choice I made
- Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
- Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
- Nowhere to hide inside my mind
- I'm scared that you'll compare and
- I'll look a lifetime past repair
- I second guess myself to death
- I re-solicit every step
- What if my words are meaningless
- What if my heart's misleading this
- I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
- Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
- When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
- I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
- And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
- I will not be giving in tonight
- When I'm old and grey or thirty
- Or whatever happens first
- I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
- Or worse what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
- Like never let you get a word in
- While I dissect my mental health
- Or lack thereof whatever there's too many things to track
- I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
- Now days all the kids want crazy wanna diagnose themselves
- Trade up made up epidemics
- Pass around prescription pills
- But my disorder can't be cured
- By a bottle blade or dose
- Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
- But I don't wanna let you see that
- I don't want my friends to know
- Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
- When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
- I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
- And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
- I will not be giving in tonight
- Try as I might to keep it together
- Why is recovery taking forever
- Fool the whole world just until I get better
- I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
- On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
- I don't have to have the answers but tonight I wish I did
- All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
- All the the secrets silenced by the shame
- Don't make me say it
- Don't make me say it
- When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
- I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
- And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
- I will not be giving in tonight
Komentar 3
🎼 Wow! Amazing post! Keep it up! 💃😁🌷🌹
If only i could sing as well as you do, then maybe I could be less disappointed in my life
😊💗